Thanks Adam Lambert!


So 2013 has finally arrived. The world didn't end on 21st December 2012 as everyone predicted it would. I guess the Mayans just ran out of ink or was it writing space? Or maybe the official Mayan calendar-writing person was fired and his replacement wasn't as good at his job as his predecessor.  Or maybe the doomsday people's calculation was way off and 21st is not the actual date?

I am just glad that I did not sell off all my things, spend every single cent I owned to travel the world and enjoy life before facing the end of the world on the 21st.. Hmm.. I wonder if anyone actually did that?? Poor guy/girl. What a bummer to wake up on the 22nd and see that the world did not end on the 21st as predicted. 

 I wonder what other doomsday prophecies and apocalypse date, scientists will come up with next.. Oh well! What does it matter. The world will end when it wants to. I am just glad, I have the time to finish the book I was reading and I get more time to enjoy Adam Lambert (not literally, though I believe  
"whistling smiley"a lot of Glamberts would love the literal sense of "enjoying" Adam. Sorry Sauli. Sorry Adam's mom). 
I meant more of enjoying Adam's music, his music videos, his live performances, his future albums, his Awards (I am a firm believer of Adam's talents. Awards and Accolades are soon to be his, in the very near future, if some people can just get that stick out of you know where and start appreciating Adam's talents and the person he is).

So as I greet 2013, here are some of the things I wish to thank Adam for : 

1) Thanks Adam for teaching me the importance of dressing well. I used to be a girl who didn't care for clothes but now thanks to you, I have decided to spend a little extra on clothes. Wearing them, though I know, no matter how hard I try, the clothes can never make me look "beautiful", but still the expensive, nicely-tailored, perfectly fitting clothes makes me feel good, gives me self-confidence and makes me walk with a strut, "like I don't give a F**K". A lesson that I learned from you, Adam, is that it does not matter how I look or what people think of me, the most important thing is how I feel about myself. And yeah, another lesson; 
credit cards were invented for the sole purpose of easing our clothes-buying endeavors!

On the other hand, make-up is still an alien, X-Files worthy thing for me. Sorry, Adam. That is a lesson I could never learn from you. I don't even know how to put on eyeliner. Gasp! Perhaps, I need a more personal touch. Some personal and private coaching, perhaps??? 
(DREAM ON??? Ok.. Yeah.. I figured that would be the case)

2) Thanks Adam for teaching me to always speak my mind, no matter how unpopular or controversial my views may be and most importantly to stand up for my rights and what I believe in. I have always had people say nasty things to me. Making fun of me was.. still is actually.. a common occurrence.. From uncles, who enjoyed calling me, "Hey Fatty!", to cousins, who used to say, "what's wrong with your hair!", to aunties, who said, "no one is going to want to marry you, you know, if you don't do something about the way you look!". When I used to just shrug and laugh it off (the only thing you could do when everyone else is laughing at what is presumed to be a joke), now I don't accept it. I just stare at them or roll my eyes. Letting them know that they stink at making jokes. Occasionally, I will be rewarded by the little elves in my brain, who give me a good, in-your-face, retaliatory response, however, coming up with a smart, snappy retort ain't really my thing, as my little brain elves are slightly sluggish so all the witty comebacks only come to me when the person has walked away (don't you just hate it when that happens? Wish I had the ability to "pause" the moment, think of a suitable, jaw-dropping response, then click "play" and hit the person with it. Boom! Touchdown!). Perhaps I should write down a list of proper rejoinders for all future insults. Nah.. That would just be a waste of time, when I could spend it on more worthwhile things such as watching Adam videos.. or making one.. 
So I guess, I'll just stick to the eye-rolling... or I could do this -
Just kidding!

3) Thanks Adam, for inspiring me to take a risk. I was born on 29 January. With people like you and Oprah sharing the same birth date as me, I sometimes wonder, why I wasn't gifted with any talent. My voice is whiny (or maybe I'm just a whiny person) and if I were to have a singing competition with a frog, the frog will win, hands down. I have no personality or charm so the TV thing is not gonna work for me. However, it does not matter, Adam, because thanks to you, I have decided to believe in myself, step out 
of my comfort zone and try to better myself. 

So I'm looking for a new job, maybe even something far away from home, something I would not have done, if Adam didn't share with us how he decided to take a risk and audition for American Idol. Adam taught me that if I want a better life, I should get up and reach for my dreams, instead of sitting and waiting for it to fall into my lap.

4) Thanks Adam, for making me feel that it's ok to be different. Growing up, I may have been the odd one out in school, with my books and oldies instead of being into the latest boy-bands but now looking back at my childhood, I feel blessed that I had the chance to enter the world of fantasy with my books, enjoy movies and songs from artists my friends had never even heard of. I may not know the words to "step-by-step" but I know who Scarlet Pimpernel is, recognize music deemed "the oldies" and when Adam tweeted the link to Jem, I knew who he was talking about (Jem was probably the time when I lost fate in men and relationships, when Jerrica's boyfriend cheated on her with Jem; what a crushing blow. Probably why I've never had a boyfriend till now. I was scarred for life. Never trusting men. 
Probably need therapy.)

5) Thanks Adam, for through you, I met a bunch of Glamberts and Starlighters, who made me feel that it is ok to be me. With their acceptance and understanding and sharing of our common love and passion, it gives me something to look forward to. I am not a social person. I am more the "come home 
"Adam Lambert Gif" "Adam Lambert Animated graphic" "Adam Lambert Book"
from work and sit in front of my tv/with a book in my hand/in front of my computer" kind of girl but with the other Glamberts on Twitter and on AO, I feel like I'm finally a part of something special. A gang. People who accept all my crazy, whiny ways and do not judge me. I sometimes wish I could hang out for real with these Glamberts, people I've never met, for they are a bunch of fun people. So thanks Adam, for through you, I discovered a group of the best people I've ever known. 

6) Thanks Adam, for you have encouraged me indirectly, to learn new skills such as blogging and video editing. In the hope, that one of these days, my pathetic attempt at video production would catch your attention. It does not matter that it would never do but I am just glad for the opportunity to learn something new and better myself. At least it gives me something fun and exciting to do at home after work, for my life before 2009, was kinda boring and uninspiring. Now, I have something to look forward to every day.

I could go on and on, thanking you, Adam Lambert, for how you have impacted my life. I hope that in 2013, you will continue to inspire others and make new fans. That you will have more dreams of yours come true. I pray that you will always have good health and success all through this year and in years to come. Most importantly, I hope you will have continuous happiness, that even if you face adversities or have moments, when you feel down or have doubts, when there are people around you, who don't understand you or say something that unintentionally hurt you, people, who put you down and say mean things, through it all, I hope you stay strong and have faith in yourself and that you will remember that you have TRUE fans that will always be there for you, who support you and will always love you unconditionally. 

To all the Glamberts, Starlighters and true Adam Lambert fans, may 2013 be the year when your dreams especially the Adam-related ones, such as meeting Adam, getting a RT from him, a reply from him during his Twitter parties, attend his concert, etc, come true (the numero uno dream is of course to meet Adam in person, I can totally relate to this dream, though I would probably be too shy to approach Adam if I do see him in public or if I do 
meet him, I might probably faint, freeze on the spot or worse say something totally inane and annoying to Adam). Hopefully, our continuous support of Adam will lead to great things for Adam in 2013. Do have fun, "enjoy Adam" and may you always be blessed with happiness.


My New Year's resolution : 
  • be a good daughter and big sister, 
  • be a good superior to my staff, guiding them and praising them when deserved,
  • make time for my family, 
  • change my job (I have been saying this from 2012, time to actively pursue it),
  • be a good Glambert, do all my voting on polls for Adam and requesting his music,
  • stop whining (sorry, ain't happening), 
  • lose weight (a resolution that has been made year after year from the time I was 14; 20 years later and I'm still making it),
  • enjoy life and not worry, too much, about things I cannot change.

Image : http://www.glitter-graphics.com/
Happy New Year everyone..

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Video for Never Close Our Eyes with Lyrics (FanMade)


When I first read from Adam Lambert's Twitter that Never Close Our Eyes is his second single, I was like "Really!!!". From the little I listened to the snippet, I wasn't exactly thrilled. Trespassing was more of my favorite as I love the beat and I love Naked Love for its killer dance music. However, when I heard the full "Never Close Our Eyes" with Adam's amazing vocals, I was a goner. Have not stopped listening to the song.

The thing that lifts the song is the amazing vocals of Adam right from the beginning. It does not start with any music, Adam's voice starts the song, which is a welcome change. As his voice is powerful and strong, it catches your attention right from the beginning. Then the killer beat starts. Awesome music. Killer beat. Great song.

I guess like every Bruno Mars' songs, the song grows on you after multiple listens. I remember a long time ago, reading Adam Lambert's tweet saying he could not get the song "It will Rain" by Bruno Mars out of his head. Like the "crazy, die-hard, I'll catch a bullet for you, do everything for you, TRUE STORY" fan of Adam Lambert I was, of course, the first thing I did was to check out the song that Adam seem to enjoy so much. 
PhotobucketWhen I listened to it, the first time, I was like "Really, Adam? What do you see in this song?"

Then with multiple listens to "It will Rain" after my radio stations and MTV played it to death, I started to love the song and then I could see why Adam liked the song (Note to self : Never mistrust Adam Lambert's judgement. When he says a song is good, it usually is good).

I believe the more we listen to Never Close Our Eyes, the more we will love it. Kudos to Bruno Mars for writing this amazing song. The thing about any Bruno Mars' songs I've listened to is the words that can touch you deeply and turn you into an icky gooey puddle. Romance pours out of every pore of any Bruno Mars' song and it is the same with Never Close Our Eyes. I love the words. The beat is amazing. Most importantly, the song gives a chance for Adam Lambert's vocals to shine. So all in all, a good choice for a single. PhotobucketNow I can't wait for the live performance of this song (not the brilliant acoustic version but the full blast live performance).

I also can't wait to see what the video for the song is going to be like. If "Better Than I Know Myself" is any indication, I'm sure the video for this second single will be great too. Have to admit, I'll take any chance to gaze at Adam. So while waiting for the release of the video, here's a video I did for the song. Just wanted to give some visuals to accompany the amazing song. Just to give me a chance to drool while I listen to Adam.

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Video for the 4 Snippets from Adam Lambert's upcoming album (Trespassing)


PhotobucketUsually the best news and tweets from Adam Lambert come when I'm dead asleep at 4am.. That's the drawback of different time zones and living so many continents away from him.. Sigh..

So anyway, I get to work at 9am and see the links to the 4 snippets on my Twitter account.. I know I should be working and should wait till I get back home after work to listen but I'm drawn to it.. Could not resist listening to the songs.. Trust me, any Glambert with the willpower of a Saint, would not be able to resist listening.
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I hoped my company was not going to fire me but after listening to the songs, I knew losing my job would be a sacrifice I'm willing to make for Adam Lambert (Ok.. I can be all cocky because I know I'm really good at my job and my company will not let me go even if I dance naked around the room, singing "Naked Love" (more of croaking instead of singing actually). They might need therapy after looking at my naked bod and all the jiggling I'm doing but in view of my contribution to my company, I'm sure they will overlook it. My family might get me committed but I hope it would not be BEFORE Trespassing is released. NOT BEFORE!!!).. Where was I? Sorry went out of topic.. 

PhotobucketAnyway, I enjoyed listening to the 4 snippets so much that when I came home from work, I decided to do a video using clips and pictures shared by kind-hearted Glamberts over the years. I hope they do not mind.

Just wanted to give everyone a chance to have something to gaze at (in other words, drool) while listening to these awesome songs..

Hope you folks enjoy the video.. Tried my best to make it worthy of Adam Lambert.. 

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Birthday Video for Adam Lambert


I did this video for Adam Lambert to wish him "Happy Birthday". This video is also my way of telling him how much he means to me. It was slightly belated as I had overestimated my video editing capabilities and the video took longer to produce, even after staying up till 3 and 4 in the morning working on the video. You may find the video tedious and boring as I only have tantalizing clips of Adam towards the end of the video, but I wanted to explain what it is about Adam Lambert that drives me crazy.



Here are some of the pictures I used in the video.



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Stuck in a Rut..


STUCK IN A RUT.. I've heard of this phrase for as long as I can remember but growing up, never really thought it would apply to me. Turned 33 on the 29th of Jan. Reflecting back on my life, I wonder if THIS IS IT... Am I going to live life not really achieving anything.. Becoming a "Have you heard what happened to her" story that people will tell their children so that the children don't end up like ME.

Mostly I'm just worried. My brother wants to further his studies but as he did not get a scholarship, we're not sure if financially we can afford it. My mom wants to take out her savings but I'm against this. What if, something happens to me and I lose my earning power. I give my mom a huge portion of my salary every month, what if something happens to me and she does not have my salary to fall back on. If she uses her savings for my brother's studies, what is she going to live on.. 

Then I'm worried about my brother.. My sister is finding it so hard to advance, even with all her skills and capabilities, because she does not have a degree. Will the same happen to my brother? Am I being a bad sister, by not ensuring he gets an education? Angry words were exchanged between us.. I said things I now regret.. But worried.. Worried.. Financial worries can really get you down, huh?? 

Then there's my mom.. A Cancer survivor, who badly needs a knee replacement surgery.. However, she's putting off the surgery as there is no one there to take care of my 90 year old grandmother. None of her other 6 siblings wants to take on the responsibility either. Leaving my mom to bear the burden of caring for my grandmother, even when my mom was undergoing chemotherapy and radiotherapy. I would never forget how she had to deal with the effects of her cancer treatment regiment while dealing with all the fusses and complaints that my grandmother makes. Can't really blame my grandmother though. She's 90. Can't exactly have her all smiles and sunny disposition. 

It's my mother's 6 siblings that anger me. Her sister who could spend 1000s going on European tours abroad but can't spare a dime for her ailing mother and who slammed the phone down on her cancer stricken sister who was asking for a little help while she undergoes radiotherapy. Not financial help. We make do with what we have. But more of help to take care of my grandmother for a few weeks at least until my mom completes her radiotherapy treatment. At the end, it was us siblings who took care of our grandmother and we did it, without complaint, for our mom. 

My mom is all the forgive and forget, the "They're family. Let's get along" type of person. I'm the "Want to show my finger while shouting FU" type of person. All the fingers and FUs are kept docile because of my mom as I don't want to hurt her feelings.

So sometimes stress really gets to me. I have no best friend to share it with. Except Mr. Blogspot here. Or is it Ms. Blogspot. Who cares. As long as Mr/Ms. Blogspot doesn't roll his/her eyes, say "I can't take listening to you anymore" and walk away. 

I don't have any talent whatsoever to better my life. I want to look for a new job.. One that pays more than my current one.. So that I can support my sibling's education and help my mother pay for a nursing home for my grandmother or at least get my grandmother a private nurse.. 

Then there are the other things.. I can handle the snide comments from elderly Indian aunties who ask my mom while looking down at me like I'm some cockroach that just slithered out of a sewage tank, "What are you doing about your daughter. She's so unattractive. How is she going to land a man? What are you feeding her. Make her lose weight". Or the comments that go something like this "You're so lucky that your daughter looks like she does because no guys want her. Look at my daughter. So beautiful. I have to fight off so many guys chasing her". Yeah. Indian aunties, who think that a woman's job is to get married and if you don't get married worse if you DON"T WANT to get married, there's something seriously wrong with you like you need to get a doctor to look at you ASAP.

It's hard explaining that you're happy as you are. That when you listen to your colleagues and friends, you're glad that you don't have any husbands irritating and controlling you and children driving you mad.. And no, I've nothing against children. All the kids I meet always give me a warm, fuzzy feeling and a lot of "awww cute" exclamations from me.. Just don't want any of my own.. Actually I don't mind having children.. Just don't want the husband that has to go along with it..

I tend to over-analyze and over-think everything. I worry that no one likes me. That folks at work just tolerate me. I worry when my YouTube videos or blogs don't get any hits. Not this blog. This is for personal ranting and venting. Sorry Mr. Blogspot (Yup. Decided to make him male). But my other blog that all my friends know about. Or supposed to know about. Darn it. Hate that I just can't connect with anyone. Do they think I'm just some weirdo freak, who gushes about Adam Lambert every chance she gets. Do they think "She's 30+, when is she going to grow up and stop being so desperate and childish". 

Worse, my Facebook friends, don't really share the same crazed interest in movies, songs and films. So whatever I write are just not something they get. Yup. I keep telling myself that to cover the lack of interest. When it could be that my writing just sucks and they're all like "she's at it again".

If it wasn't for Adam Lambert, I can't imagine what life would be like for me. He lessens my worries as he gives me something to look forward to. Like a new album or a new performance. He allows me to dream that things would get better for me. That I would get a great paying job. Like working with Adam Lambert (that isn't really a good idea as I would work for him, free of charge but I can't as I need money for my family).

That I would meet him one day and he would say "Yeah. I like crazy neurotic girls, with no talent, no looks, boring, no personality, slight childish with such great frumpy and shabby dressing. Yeah. Great. LET'S BE FRIENDS. Heck. Best friends" (the last said with that sexy, shiver inducing voice of his). What's wrong in a little dream and fantasies to get through the day, eh?? 


With zero social life and no other options on weekends, other than curling up with a good book or a good movie or film on tv, I get to work on videos for Adam Lambert. Of course, the videos suck but I love them, isn't that the most important thing?


What a sucky blog post, I've just written.

Crap. Off to bed with me now!!!!!Tweet This

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Behind the Scenes of Better Than I Know Myself



Geez.. Can Adam get any MORE gorgeous??? Like SERIOUSLY!!!! Never imagined a cardigan could rock like that.. He looks mouth watering (and No, I am not a cannibal)..

I wish I had a boyfriend so that I could buy him a cardigan.. Heck I think I am going to buy a mannequin, get that cardigan, put it on and imagine that mannequin is Adam..

Darn it, I am talking like some pervert.. Sorry guys, can't think straight.. My mind is not working.. A picture and sneak peeks did that to me.. Imagine what the video is going to do.. I better write my will.. Heck, better write my obituary. 


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Sneak Peek of Better Than I Know Myself


The story goes like this. Was supposed to have dinner with my mom, my brother and his girlfriend, sort of introducing his girlfriend to us but moronic old me decided to check my twitter first before dinner, just to see if Lord Lambert of Gorgeous Shire had tweeted us. Then saw the Sneak Peek. My heart stopped. Literally. 

Then went for dinner and spent it staring at the wall, grinning like a fool and I would deny it if questioned, maybe even a drool happened. Could not stop thinking of the video. The thoughts in my brother's girlfriend's head must go something like this, "His sister seems a little deranged. Is she out of some mental institution? Do I have to take care of her if I marry him? Can mental illness be inherited by our children? Why is she humming that song? She looks dazed? Did she just sigh out of the blue, for no apparent reason? What am I getting into?? I'm outta here!!!!"

If she sticks with my brother, then clearly she is made of sterner stuff and is ready for our crazy family. 


P.S. If there are no further posts from me, after this, then it's confirmed, my family has had me committed. 


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